Wednesday, September 20, 2006
more than anythingcollege app deadlines are kind of sneaking around the corner. this year is turning out a lot differently than i anticipated, and i'm not sure if it's good or not yet. but what are we all doing now? there seems to be a lot of just... weirdness everywhere. people are acting not like themselves. i know i haven't been quite at equilibrium, but maybe it's a good thing. and i'm not sure if this is why i've been seeing other people differently but i have, i guess. it's weird when a lot of stuff that's been constant for so long randomly changes. i'm not even really sure if what i'm feeling makes any sense or how i'm supposed to portray it correctly to you.
we are maturing a lot, though. whether we like it or not. and i can't decide if i like it more or less; everything seems a little more dismal now than when i was a wee lass. infalliable adults are just as flawed as we are, now. usually moreso, they've had time to perfect.
i'm not sure what i'm trying to tell you. but maybe i am. nobody tells it like it is any more. which, i learned the hard way, is probably for the best.
i guess... like snow patrol says when i put them on repeat... tell me that you'll open your eyes.
and now, for something completely different.
i want to see you