Tuesday, October 14, 2003
how does it feel to stand alone?nobody understands. or really cares. yeah. that's just the way it is. sure, people try to get you to care, but really they don't. i just typed a whole bunch of mean stuff. but decided to erase it. again. i'm such an idiot.
i have a mother and father who get mad at me for making a freaking b. my mother was dissapointed when i got a 90, for heavens sake. "it was almost a b, arden! try harder!"
i'm sick of people thinking that i'm just a crazy smart girl who's always happy and good at everything (except sports and being quiet for long periods of time). but i'm not. would you all really like to know why i'm always happy? because i'm not at home. i don't have to deal with brothers who have anger issues, a mother who likes to pick on me, or a dad who's not there a lot of the time. and when he is, he usually embarrasess me profuesely in public or gets mad at me for not getting him a beer. i know, some know this is only part of them, but it's what i always see. and i'm really upset right now. but nobody cares now, do they.
nobody has probably read this, either. because they don't care. i have to go now and do homework i've never ever cared about for teachers i dislike (except for mrs david and mrs strait... yeah, that's right, i like our science teacher. unlike other teachers, she knows how to teach and doesn't let f***ing slakers get away with stuff), and a mother who likes to scream at me. amazingly, i've managed not to cry tonight. for the first time in a while. but, again, why do you care? you think my life is good. i should be thankful, right?
here's my words to you;
shut up.
Tuesday! It's weird. my favorite day of the week. yay!
modern tonight. yay again. it's so much fun. um... we had a science benchmark today. it was easy. language arts writing thing. it was easy. got a 95 on my lab. yay. again. i hate my lab group. a lot. they suck.
ok i'm done with that....
nickel creek is THE BEST! with a capital... all the letters in THE BEST! yes. i'm listening to them on my family's SURROUND SOUND! like i do every day after school... it's so pretty outside! so i went and rode my scooter. people laughed at me. so i laughed at them. it was great!
i'm doing the marching band spread for yearbook! when i signed up everybody was like "what the hell?" because nobody likes band in yearbook. crazy people. i'm also doing the story on birthdays. and a story with jenn on piercings and tattoos. which we haven't started yet (it is her fault; she couldn't find the list i told her to get three weeks ago. she had on really ugly shoes today too. she's going to get really mad at me if she reads this... oops). oh well. like everything else i've ever done, it'll get... well... done. yeah.
more nickel creek! yay! listen to Seven Wonders, The Fox, Green and Gray, or Young
good songs... good songs
Monday, October 13, 2003
Hi! I'm starting a new blog. again. or trying to. anyway.i'm so sick of stupid people. they're everywhere. the worst thing is, sometimes i feel like i'm one of them. i mean, i just want to kick myself sometimes for being so stupid. like when... oh... never mind. i can't tell you about that. it's a secret. anyho...
i think my arms are finally getting stronger! (if anna is reading this she is probably laughing her head off right about now). yay! yoga is so much fun. trevor and chris said it was weird. i told them they're just stupid. which is completely true, is it not?
finished my book, started on the third of the trilogy. finally. not like you care. but then, if you really don't care, why the crap are you reading this? maybe because you are bored. well, if you are bored, there's a little thing called the television. or of course, there are cats. yes. cats are funny. i really should be working on my geography homework.
speaking of which, for the record, mccall's sub was a nut. IS a nut. will always BE a nut. spent all of friday talking to us about how we need to be nice to mrs mccall so she'll write us some good letters of reccomendation. yeah right. i think she already dislikes me. so does mrs sharp. but that's another story.
football game friday against spring woods! yay! i have friends there. <
well, i reall need to go change out of my sweaty dance clothing. um. i'll try to update this. TRY. yeah. see ya
peace out broda