Sunday, February 29, 2004

so take away the old, show me the new

HAHAHAH!! good god... man i haven't updated since... thursday. four days. i think it's four... *counts on fingers* no wait it's three... hehehe.

back to friday... *insert fuzzy outline like in flashbacks on tv*
went to school. took a science test. went to yoga. got home from yoga. called the cops... here's the low-down on that;

alrighty; i get home from yoga. anna's mom drops me off, anna comes in with me because she's carrying some books for my mom (my mom and her mom have this book-trade thing going on). she leaves, shuts the gate (remember that; it's important). so, not being home for more than five minutes, the doorbell rings. i go down quietly to see who it is. can't see through the peep-hole; my mom has a wreath on the front door (that thing is so annoying, you can't see who's there). so i try to see out the window without beeing seen, as we're not supposed to answer the door when our parents aren't home (oh, i'm at home by myself, by the way). so then, i see some woman through the sheerish curtains in the dining room, and don't recognize her at all. she does NOT look like somebody who lives in my neihborhood (dressed not that nicely, and overall a little like she's in the wrong part of town, not to be mean, she turned out to be a really nice person and all, its just at the time it added to my uncomftorbleness). so, i stand in wait in a corner of the dining room. i look out the window; through the curtain i can still see a huge, white, non-descript truck that's only a few wheels short of an 18-wheeler. then, i hear somebody banging on the back door. it wasn't knocking, but a metallic sound on the window (our doors are mostly glass inside a large wooden frame). then i scoot into the kitchen; i hear talking, but no recognizeable voices. so i go back into the dining room and around the stairs, so i can see through the window in the door that was being banged on; nothing but a man and a woman walking away, and i can only see one of the mans arms as he swings it. it was thrust out of a red cut-off sweatshirt. the were walking further down our driveway, from where they could then get to our backyard and the other back door. i took the phone and bolted quietly up the stairs. i then proceeded to look out the window above this very computer, to see if i could see them. nothing. so i called my mom. told her what had happened. she said to call my neighbor and ask him to come over. this guy is 6'7"ish, and pretty strong for a man in his 50s. so i called. nobody home. then i resorted to the last option my mom had given me; press the rocket-dial on our phone, which automatically calls the police. so i did. a really bored-sounding lady answered the phone and noncalantly said "police station. what's the problem?" I told her what was going on, and i started getting really freaked out. the truck was moving again, as the man had apparently gotten back inside. the woman was leaning on the stop sign that's right next to our driveway, watching. obviously they didn't plan on leaving. the truck pulled into the street that runs right next to our house, then tried pulling into our driveway. truck was too long, so he tried again. then he gave up and merely turned the truck around. then one of my neighbor ladies (there's a whole group of them, one of whom is always out walking. so thusly they are called the neighbor ladies) went up to unknown woman and apparently asked her what she was doing (i was in my room up on the second floor, with a tree obstructing my vision, and i couldn't hear what she was saying). the unknown lady pointed to my house and said something. neighbor lady walked off, apparently unconcerned (when one such neighbor lady gets concerned, she turns red and waves her hands around a lot and sticks out her bottom jaw...). all the while i'm relaying this to the police lady, who seems a bit more concerned. asked me where my house was (which i told her when she first answered the phone) and my name (also told her that), told me she'd send over some units but to stay on the phone with her until she said that it was ok. the units came, the man gets out of the car. i can't see his face; there's a branch in the way. the police lady (not the one on the phone, the one talking to the man outside my house) talks to both suspects for a while, then radios the lady on the phone with me. says one the man claims to be my uncle, tells me to come down to the back door and see his drivers lisence to check. so i go down the stairs. truth be told, it was my uncle. my uncle eric, to be percise; my mom's third youngest brother. he's a nut; likes to pop in and such unexpectadly. obviously. so i follow the police woman outside, hang up with the one on the phone. go talk to my uncle. he thought it was all hilarious; he'd planned to surprise us. i surprised him... im never going to live this one down. i'm such a paranoid freak. once i called danielle and asked her and her mom to come over because a UPS man came around 7 and was writing something on his ledger when i woulnd't answer the door (to note that nobody was home). his pen had a light at the end, i thouht somebody was trying to see throught the windows... hehehe.

yesterday was anna's party; really fun. seth lost!! he won't say it though. ha. i won, just for the record.

today? i woke up at noon. piano lesson. procrastinating. still procrastinating. its raining! though its a weird sort of rain. it pours for a few seconds, then drizzles. pour, drizzle, pour, drizzle... and so on, for the last half hour.

well... i have to go do my english hw. so i'm going to go. procrastinate a little longer...

and i feel like i can fly when i stand next to you

Thursday, February 26, 2004

people killin' people dyin'

science test wasn't nearly as bad as i thought it was going to be (i say that, i bet i'll get a bad grade now...). um... HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOLLIS!!! what else went on today...

oh yeah! today at dinner (which i ate at 5 because dance starts at 6:30 on thursday when i go help the liddle chilluns) christian got a CHOCOLATE shake just because he knew i gave up chocolate for lent. seriously, i know this sounds really stupid, but i really did almost start crying as i watched him eat it. AND ITS ONLY THE SECOND DAY!!!

well im really tired so i think i shall be retiring soon. why is it i have all this stuff to write in my blog then forget it when im actually posting things... *baffled*

children hurtin', hear them cryin'...

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

but we'll waltz like an army

nothing much... math benchmark. finished by nine, had two and a half hours with which to do anything but sleep... crazy sub. making up rules... hahaha. oh well.

um... good luck on the science test everybody! may the force be with you...

::NOTE:: please, pleasepleaseplease, do not mention anything having to do with something that starts with c and ends in hocolate... gave it up for lent. one day down, i'm already suffering of deprivation.

for the fear of our pain

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

nicholas ned, he lost his head

I hate TAKS, you'll all agree with me on this... nothing much going on lately. sorry, i still can't figure out what's wrong with my headers. great, i think i'll have to email the support crew or whatever they're called.

em... shortened periods, so we didnt' really do much else.

and... oh yeah!


HAPPY

MARDI

so he put a bananamangowatermelontypethingy on instead!

Monday, February 23, 2004

i only want you to see

nothing much today... ehmm... besides some stuff. french exchange student MANIA!! they're all quiet. but man, i'd be quiet too if i was in france and nobody really spoke much english... well nevermind, i'd probably be talking my head off, just because nobody would have any idea what most of what i was saying means. hehehe...

i love this song! download it NOW (im not kidding, download it or i'll hurt you... or if you're like me and decided that music piracy wasn't bad, but it was just smarter to delete it and not get fined then keep on pirating, just im me and i'll send it to you)!!!

Come in Closer, by Blue October

The first born, my heart will call Truly
A God-like boy of the sky
The fog hissed away like a movie
And serpents go home for the night
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on makeup for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
And how the wind she blows
How the wind she blows

I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer

Come dancing with devils
Need not to know their names
We'll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
Our souls become useless
As the day they were born
In a rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

But still, the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
Where my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
Like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer
I really do


ok... well that's all for now. oh, and whoever left that comment on yesterday's post, it was very entertaining... hahaha.

my favorite part of me

Sunday, February 22, 2004

Yeah, we only want to fly by the side, making love

well... i'm procrastinating even more to do my science labs. i'm getting mad at myself... gahhh. oh well. so i took this quiz. hahaha... its some color thing. i've taken it before, and it's so random... hehe. here goes:

My existing situation:
Willing and adaptable. Only at peace when closely attached to a person, group, or organization on a which reliance can be placed.

My stress sources:
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

My restrained characteristics:
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Tends to hold aloof emotionally.

My desired objective:
Wants to make up for what she feels she has missed by living with exaggerated intensity; in this way she feels she can break free from all the things that oppress her.

My actual problem:
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or her reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to remedy this by intense activity and by insistence on getting her own way. Faulty self-control can lead to ungovernable displays of anger.


well now... its just a little freaky how some of this makes sense. hahaha... anyway. i am sooo not egocentric! just because i'm better than everybody else doesn't mean that i'm egocentric (hahaha... im so funny...)!!! I do feel overtaxed. damn english hw!!

well, i'm really going to try and do my science labs. email me or im me or call me or whatever if you need help. good thing i can filter my emails, ignore ims and have caller id, eh? ha! in your face. see yall tamarie.

To the rythm, be a Jeckyl and a Hyde

Saturday, February 21, 2004

the rain will come

goodness... that was so freaking annoying... didn't help that my mouse was being crazy. oh? wondering what i'm talking about? try and get out.... when you find yourself in the room of doom

oh, and this is the link to a hilarious sign that katherine showed me. go check it out!

the rain always brings our heroes

but still the truth remains lethal

nothing much today, lots of gaia surfing... stumbled upon a thread titled "TIME TRAVEL! I'll tell you why your actions will kill us all". here are a few excerpts;

Lina 33: I would go back in time and kill... lets say... Stalin.

Chocob-O-RAMA: Although it was not popularly know, Stalin was an evil robot sent by aliens. He was created to test the will of man. His actuall death was planned because they decided that we were a worthy race to be brought into slavery due to the fact that we are easily led like cattle. But since you killed him they became angered and realized that the humans are useless to them as we are too violent and strong willed. So in 2006 they would come down and burn the entire planet with a really big missle thingy. We all died except for 4 men who at the time were living 30000 miles underground. They died cause they couldn't figure out how to make babies.


Kaylea (me): Hahaha... what about... how did life start?

Chocob-O-RAMA:I'll assume you mean you would travel to the beinging of earth life stuff... ok good.

If your an athiest-
There was a rock who as very lonely. All of the other rocks would sit around all day and not talk to him or do anything or play or dance or kill or laugh. he was lonely and sad and wanted more. So he tried with all his might to kill the hell outta them cause they were pissing him off being content with sitting there and being rocks. He summoned the winds and they got blow the hell away. They still didn't care and now there were no more rocks to piss him off so he was sad and lonely. So he cried from his little rock eyes that didn't exist and he created the oceans. That made all the world really wet... except for mountains and stuff. The little wet rock decided he wanted to share water with the high rocks and maybe they would praise him so he tried as hard as he could to cry some more... but he accidntly made lighting and that exploded all the high rocks and there just happened to be an alien puppy dog thing in one of the rocks that and alien had left behing on vacation. The puppy exploded all over the word and the rocks felt bad for him so they helped all the little tiny pieces of him to grow and flourish and then everything evolved from that

If you believe in a god:
(god of your choice) was bored so he made some pathetic little creatures so he could watch them suffer.


pinke: hmm i would go back in time and destroy george w bush's fetus.

Chocob-O-RAMA: Bush senior would be come sad that his baby died and make another baby. he would name this one Tree. Tree grew up to be exactly like george except he is half as retarted as george, the american ecomny actually grows when he become president and we assinate sadam and his children secretly insted of going to war. We blame it on north korea and they kill each other. Tree is never recognized for his acomplishmnts since it was all undersecrecy and fades away into history as a so-so president.


RagWeedFairy: id go back in time to see the dinosaurs (and run from them )

Chocob-O-RAMA:When you go back in time to see dinosaurs they see you and it blows their entire civilization away. All thier philisophy and science can not explian your existance. They decide to research you and so they try and take you to their labs, but you run away. They start fighting over who gets to study you and they eventually start bombin each other with poisons and they end up destroying their entire cilization with their missles that melt walls and brains. They kill themselfs and nothing else. You slip on a rock and fall on a plant... somehow this makes you pregant and you give birth to human kind. but they get frozen in ice for a few hundred or so years and thaw later and keep on living as history says humans existed.


GIenn: I'd check out the future rather than go into the past. But if I had to choose a place in the past to go to then I'd go back to the renaissance.

Chocob-O-RAMA:Your visit to the renaissance inspires many great works of art, so many in fact that it changes the worlds system of using money, to using art as a measure of wealth and trade. Artists are never again starving artists and financial experts with no taste in art live in boxes and studio apartments.


so yeah... somewhere in there some guy said something about how Stephen Hawking said that if humans invented time travel, we'd be swamped with tourists from the future. then i said something about how if they were smart enough to come up with that, and all current views on changing the past, how it'd make sense that the people of the future would come up with a way to keep from being seen or otherwise altering the past. This went on as a few others commented, and then one girl came up with the thought that maybe UFOs are actually people from the future. we all figured that was pretty logical, and that's where that part of the thread ended. if any other funny explainations come up like the ones above, i'll post them.

a lie made by man

Friday, February 20, 2004

i will go down with each ship

holaaaaa gentes! soy jenn...sorry arden is getting pissed cuz I'm not speaking in english..I HATE MAYONAISE!!!! hollis brought me food and I got a crispy chicken sandwhich and its really yummy but I forgot to tel her not to get mayonaise..CUZ I HATE IT...but its still really good and the fries were really yummy so its all good...arden is playing with a paperclip and makign the dude stab himself...aiight then well I'm gonna go back to eating my yummy yummy sandwhich..I can't spell...bye!!!

i won't put my hands up and surrender

Thursday, February 19, 2004

and she will be loved

*sigh* i'm so sick of all of this... education isn't education, it's... brainwashing, draining of the spirit, squelching of creativity and imagination. what happened to all the stories and poems i used to write? they left. my teachers killed them. what happened to me... i'm not the person i was. you might be thinking "what the hell is she getting at?". the answer? nothing. nothing matters any more. i used to love school, to tell you the truth. i love to learn things. i love to make things. i love to write things, draw things. or, at least i did. the creativeness in me is dying, and it's scaring me. what happened to this world, that the uniqueness we are so directed towards becomes uniform?

now, i ask you this; will you help me fight? i'm so sick of this crap they call education; i don't need to be taught every freaking year how to take a standardized test; i don't want to stick to the curriculum needed to have the students take and pass the test. the schools are doing this because lack of money, and higher standardized test scores = money from the government.

so i ask you this; am i the only one who cares enough? or do you think i'm a lunatic who needs a hobby?

if you want to do something about this crap they're force-feeding us, talk to me at school. or leave a comment, i'll get back to you. i'm going to go chat on gaia, there people understand...

yes she will be loved

with the taste of your lips i'm on a ride

fwananana!! I'm in yearbook right now... we're inbetween deadlines, and I haven't anything to do... we have had some weird subs today. and how!

ANNA HAS FFCC, HM FOR GCN, AND A PS2!!!! SHES STOLEN EVERYTHING I'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF!!! *cries*

oh well. she said i could have files... yay! **NOTE:: if you're reading this, please, for the love of god, leave a comment**

well... there was something i wanted to add, but i seem to have forgotten. more later? maybe? hmmm what was it i wanted to add to that last post...

i'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

look for the girl with the broken smile

whyyyy!!! i HATE being sick. well, i don't have strep. but my throat is still all swollen and raw and loogie-fied. bet you really wanted to know that, right? i am grounded, but i've been on aim anyway... *shhh!!* hahaha. if anybody has the hw for today, please tell me. i don't want to do it all tomorrow after school. i'm way to lazy to do something like that. hehehe...

wow. i just read one of my prior entries (i'm that bored. i watched anastasia a while ago. but now i'm listening to my maroon 5 cd *cheers*). why didn't anybody tell me they were that boring? and... not well crafted... oh well.

hmmm... it's so beautiful outside today. i love that my computer's right underneath a window. i can look up and see outside! and... the sky is making me thirsty again... hahahaha (sorry anna... lol).

well i'd write something witty or interesting, seeing as i have oodles of free time, but i'm loaded with three different medicines and feel like watching lion king 1 1/2, so i think i'll leave you guys to be bored and go watch some good ole' television.

just wait, i'll add more later, and... to add to interestinglyness (which is not a word, but i like it), i'm going to write it in french. hahaha. if i'm not too lazy... well now my head hurts, talk to everybody later... when you get home from schoolay.

oh, and i fixed the comments, which is probably what messed up my headers (which i really don't feel like fixing), so let me know my tedious work was worth it by leaving a comment. it would really be appreciated (what with getting fourty hits a week, you'd think somebody would have an opinion on something...)

ask her if she wants to stay a while

Monday, February 16, 2004

i'm calling you to see

fyi- i'm grounded this week, so i won't be using aim... much... nah, i won't be on at all actually. unless i have a question on hw. if you need something, call.

if you're ok when i'm not around

Sunday, February 15, 2004

i wanna lay like this forever

i know, i know. my date thingies aren't working, and there's nothing i can do about it. hahaha. oh well. hmm... today... i played checkers online and kept losing... got really confused... maybe that'll be figured out later... maybe not?

i went to becca's for girl scouts, and we didn't really have a meeting, the mary kay lady (makeup stuff) came and showed us how to properly apply "glamour". hahahaha. it was fun though, my face feels all nice because i washed it with some of the stuff she let us sample. what else... we went to Houston's for dinner and i didn't get anything because i wasn't hungry (had nachos and lemon cheesecake at beccas). then we were GOING to go to target to get the maroon 5 cd, but NOOO, my dad didn't feel like it. i want that cd so bad... and the blue october cd. if you have it, might i steal it?

so anyway, all the ims at the bottom of my screen are bleeping orange at me, i should go. toodle pip!

until the sky falls down on me

Saturday, February 14, 2004

HAPPY

VALENTINES

Hope you're all having a great day! Don't be depressed if you're alone, because you know you're not. Everybody has some friends! speaking of which, lookit what harry imed me;



it got a little weirded up because the coding doesn't want to accept random spaces before characters, so it's a little disfigured, but still. somebody out there has just a LITTLE too much free time... hahaha.

so, we went to go see perfect score. the plot was one of the worst i have ever seen. but that azn guy was friggin HILARIOUS!! if you're going to the movies, though, i reccommend that you see something else. unless, of course, you want to see the azn dude make bird noises and tell one of the girls she needs a pimp. it's great. my advice would be to wait untill it comes out on dvd and vhs.

well, I hope everybody has a good day, it's so beautiful outside, if you don't you're doing injustice to it!

have a happy <3 day!

may it be an evening star



shines down upon us

Friday, February 13, 2004

we're a true nature's child

WILD AMERICA is on tv right now. such a good movie. i remember i used to think JTT was soooo hott. lol.

had a good time last night confusing the hell out of a bunch of people. it was great... just call me... jamie... *snicker*

so anyway... hmmm

going to claire's birthday dinner tonight, it should be lotsa fun. more later.

i'm going to go eat myself some cinnamon roles, seeing as i just woke up half an hour ago and are hungry.

we were born, born to be wild!

Thursday, February 12, 2004

they loved each other

ima... so bored...

I FINISHED MY SPORTS STORIES!! YESS!!!!

we had our romeo and juliet day thing today. it was painfully boring and unorganized and uneventful... in short, a huge disgrace to that time period.

well, im in a chat right now with trevor and harry and katie, i think they all think i died or something, so i'm going to go. maybe i'll post summore later.

and with me watched the sunsets into night

Sunday, February 08, 2004

there's been times

i was just reading claire's livejournal (to the left, in the friends bar...) and i realized hers is way more interesting than mine is right now. i'm so freaking lazy now... hehehe....

anyway, here's the song she came up with in geography friday as we were discussing the lion king;

::to the tune of the weird Lion King song::

My name is Simba
I am a Lion King
I have a diamond ring
AHH SHVENYA-ALLA-FANGA! DOO-BWOLANGA!

My girlfriend's Nala
To her I say "holla"
I guess she's pretty cool,
by lion standards
I ain't no fool
I give her lanyards
all the time...
AHH SHVENYA-ALLA-FANGA! DOO-BWOLANGA!

kudos, claire! i almost like this more than harry's poem (read down).

um... what else... i went to the special olympics volleyball game state championship games (i couldn't go today though, so i don't know who won). and it was AWESOME!! for anybody who needs to be happy, go there! everybody is so nice... its nice to meet people who don't give a crap about how you look or make pretenses upon seeing you. i shook more hands and talked to more complete strangers than i have in my entire life. it was awesome!

hahaha... now this is pretty funny. as you might know, harry's my lover (for those of you who don't know him, he's one of trevors friends who goes to spring woods). no, he's really not my lover, it is a JOKE, but its funny. anyway, earlier today he thought that when i told him i loved him i meant it, and got all freaked out because he completely is head over heels for this other girl, and knew that i knew. it was pretty funny. i had no idea he thought that until he said something.

moving on to less confusingly hilarious things...
pirates of panzance was awesome! i'm not sure if i spelled that right... penzance, not awesome. i met some people i've been talking to for weeks but have never met in person... and the play itself was hilarious (lief stole it... hahaha). afterwards, according to harry and trevor, there was a cast party where harry and leif and another friend started snorting sugar... says a lot for my friends now, doesnt it... hehehe.

we got gs cookies in today, so if you ordered some from me i'll bring them when i remember. probably tomorrow. maybe. if i remember. if you didn't buy any and would like to, email me (to the left, foo!)

well, all my friends are asking me what i'm doing and why i'm not answering them, so i'll go now. peace. hahaha that sounds so lame... like a hippie.

i'm so cunfused

i could sing of your love forever

wow, i updated with something other than complete randomness! AMAZIFYING!

um... i'm doing this because i'm bored and have nothing to do.

i think our school is squelching every ounce of creativeness left in us... i haven't written a single poem in weeks, well besides the one in the last post... and that speaks for itself...

and now, sorry, but i'm going to have to leave, i need to go do something, my back is being retarded again.

i could sing of your love, forever more

Saturday, February 07, 2004

i do believe in fairies!

Here is a metaphore that my love hath bore;

my love for you,
oh sweet dearest possession,
is like that of a jellyfish,
being poked by a kid with a sick obsession.

i <3 u!

i do! i do!

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

this is not the greatest song in the world

I enjoy the taste of cheese
I would like nothing more please.
In this world
no other girl
can be as great
as what i ate.
So i say it with ease
It's all about THE CHEESE!

The color of golden yellow
Makes me a jolly fellow
Sometimes it's white
and it shines so bright
Sometimes it smells
and i hear the rings of bells
So please don't tease
give me some cheese!
~Harry Yu

Harry's a genius! we should all bow down in his greatness of cheesy-splendiferous! kudos, my friend!

no, this is just a tribute