Wednesday, August 03, 2005

and all our hearts afire

i am still finding it hard to believe that i am a junior.. that this year i have to start deciding what i am going to do with the rest of my life (looking at colleges, basically). it is just the beginning of the rest, i know. but things keep changing. and it is getting sort of overwhelming at times. all this and school hasn't even started yet.

if one more person asks me what college i am looking at going to, i am going to maul them within an inch of their life. i have always just sort of taken things as they've come i guess, and i would like to continue doing so for the most part. i don't want to ruin what i have now by thinking about what i will have later, you know? why waste time thinking over something i can't really decide right now anyway. personally, it makes no sense to me. oh well. anyway.

a lot really has changed, though. friends i thought i'd be with forever are drifting away, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, we all need a bit of change and we are all going to end up someplace different in all likelyhood. but when it all happens in one year it's a bit scary. not to say any of my friends are less of friends, it is just a little different than it used to be. i am ok with that though.

a lot of things have ended as well. lord of the rings movies, friends (not that i really watched it that much, but others tell me it is a big deal, an end of an era), the pope, some of my respect for our nation. nick is going to college, and it will be very strange not having him around. as much as i'd like to say i'm happy that he's going, i'm really not i guess. i get to go visit him, so that should be fun. he is going to tulane, stop asking me that too. webcomics have been ending rampantly this year too. first smartass chronicles, then queen of wands. now squidi. i just finished reading his little ending post mabob too. i still think the original amd was the best though, and always will be. heh, i am such a huge dork. don't you just love me?

on a more exciting and interesting note, becca and i went with her mother to the lotr exhibit at the museum. i don't know what yall were talking about, but i thought it was pretty good. we watched every single one of those little videos. a lot really went into that movie... it is pretty amazing.

that is why we are watching it tonight, which should also be fun.

and that is where i'm headed. to eat and then go watch the best movie series ever created.

the sky ablaze with cannon fire