Monday, March 14, 2005

you're feathers are gone

amazingly enough, today did not completely and totally suck for a monday. that makes me happy on the inside. though some things were... well, less than hoped for, i guess. but that doesn't really matter.

as you might've noticed, i did change the song again. go check out toothpaste for dinner, it is totally awesome.

i wish i had time just to sit and not even think about anything. sleep with my eyes open, again. heh... i actually do that when i'm really tired, apparently. anna woke me up once and said, "sorry, i had to do that, it was really creepy, your eyes were open." so yeah. that was really random.

sorry in general for my posts being lame, at least they're not a certain somebody's i know... who's name is very similar to something you step on before you go inside a house.

i was thinking too much earlier (instead of reading that history chapter. but no worries, i did in fact finish it. good for me.). i was reflecting on how odd it was that very few people actually really know me. but that is a lie, i guess. how can people really know you if you don't know yourself? how is that even possible? it's crazy. all this talk of sensitivity. we are all running around in circles trying to please everybody, and when we can't, we fall apart. you'd think there'd be something bigger, maybe. there's no point to us being here, really. the time humans have inhabited the earth in the ways we do today, all this civilization silliness, is like a blink of the earth's never-closing eyes.

i realize that did not make much sense.

i need to stop thinking. it doesn't work well, does it?

i should also probably stop insulting myself. i can't give myself a bad rep. that's your job.

you'll never fly