Thursday, December 02, 2004
and she cried in the silencei've been doing some thinking the past few days. which i guess is a good thing, because i realized i haven't really been with it for a while. kind of on autopilot, i guess. i don't really have incentive to do a whole lot of thinking either, i suppose, as it has been putting me in a bad mood.
this doesn't make a lot of sense, does it.
maybe not to you. i don't think it makes much sense to me either, really. i guess... well, a bit. it makes sense a little. i used to want to make things, to write, to play, to... just do stuff. recently i just haven't had the spirit to. that might be why i've been in such an ick mood lately, i guess.
i think another one of my problems might be that i don't really talk with people as much as i used to. i mean, sure, i talk to people, but not with them... if that makes any sense. i've been having some trouble being open lately. there's always been some trouble with that for me, but usually there's somebody i can rant and rant to or talk things out with.
well. i am feeling a bit better. and also, i'd like to apologize to those of you who i've been... so upset with. it didn't really make any sense. and i'm sorry. i really don't mean to be this way. i don't know what's happened to me.
of her mind to be heard