Tuesday, August 03, 2004

this time alone

well. today we (my family) picked up my mom from the airport. she goes to vegas once a year for a week with my aunt and grandmother. only this time my grandmother couldn't go, as pops is in the hospital. again.

anna got her hair cut, and i really want to see it. i'll see it tomorrow in drivers ed though, so w00t for that.

oh yes, and nick was extremely odd in a random act of good olderbrotherliness (yes, it is a word...) by inviting anna and i to mosey over to the band shack after we finished with drivers ed to go to lunch with him and some other band peoples. it was ok i guess, new fishies. sort of. i've met some of them before, back in my days at the dump some like to call middle school.

well. some of my friends are being weird right now. oh well. but it makes me wonder. one of them brought up the thought that he didn't really know me that well. it got me thinking. maybe people don't really know me. hell, sometimes i don't even know me. but.. i think a lot of people don't try to know me. most of the time, everybody just tries to figure out for themselves who you are. i'm not sure if that works.

meh. people keep asking me to explain things, too. one, i'm really bad at explaining things. two, a lot of the times i'm asked to explain things that really have no explaination.

i don't know. i'm not sure i'm making any sense. this happens when i start thinking. which is why i don't think like this as much as i used to, it just makes a big mess. which is sad. you know, some people think i'm really stupid. i hope it's ok if i laugh at them. wait. no. actually? i don't care.

i'm going to go while there's still an ounce of... makingsenseness... in me.

could never cause any doubt