Friday, January 02, 2004
whatever tomorrow brings, i'll be therehi. i'm crying. and i don't know why. i just am. it's really weird. i'm not even sad. well i am, but that's not why i'm crying. i'm making no sense. my grandpa's in the hospital, and that is part of it, but... i don't know. i think i'm going nuts. really i do. i'm not.... i don't know what the hell i'm talking about. i'm sad that my grandpa is sick, but he's been sick. and he's going to be fine, i can feel it. i hope. um. i just feel lonely. which is weird. because i have a whole bunch of REALLY great friends and a great family and i could care less whether i have a boyfriend or not (sure, they're good friends and all, but most of them are just... too stupid. or too much like me. it's that whole growing up surrounded by them thing. i know, i'm a freak. shut up). maybe it's because david just saw lotr for a second time and i've only seen it once. or that trevor has a ps and a ps2 and i don't. stupid final fantasy. i hate you square! you make great games!! BUT FOR THE FREAKING WRONG SYSTEM! but that's not why i'm sad. games aren't something you cry over. i don't know what the hell i'm talking about. ok. well, i'm going to go completely ignore this weird feeling and watch some mindless tv or something. peace out.
with open arms and open eyes.